An easy thing for most so why is it so hard for me? It seems like no matter what happens or what I do, it all comes down to food. Am I going to limit my intake or binge, what am I going to eat. Will I be healthy or unhealthy today. I hate it now I've been noticing how much I compare what i'm eating to what others are. Seeing the massive amounts of food in the DC and the massive amounts of unhealthy foods on peoples plates.
I so wish I could eat them and not feel bad, that I could eat with out thinking about calories and sugar and blah blah blah. I HATE IT!!! I know people are going to look at this and be like whatever who even cares, and you know what I DO. For once i'm taking a stand and seeing that I am still sick but I am also striving to get better. One day at a time and one meal at a time. I'm striving to find a balance in what I eat and when. Making it so I don't have to worry about food 24/7. I just want to live a normal life be able to eat a slice of pizza with out feeling so incredibly guilty about it. Not having to eat a salad every meal of the day and making up for my calories in granola or sugar. To not feel fat if I miss a work out or 5 a week. I'm in college, i'm a healthy weight, I have friends, and a amazing God. Why am I not happy!? WHY CAN I STILL NOT GET IT RIGHT WITH FOOD???
