ending of the hard one.

When you open up your heart its amazing what might happen. I never thought that once i opened myself up friendships would follow. The first semester of college has been a roller coaster, but i wouldn't change any of it. I am not the girl i was when i came here, being afraid is not the option. No one is going to tell you what to do you have to decide that on your own. Well time to go write a paper....aka watch a movie.... I love you all!! 11 days!!!!

The place I now call home...

MICHIGAN... One word so many meanings.

Being here was a stretch for a long time and though i still don't know where I belong i know it is somewhere. I have a hard time Perceiving myself as someone people like, which is only hurting me, because as I learned in Psychology today how you perceive yourself is how you will act around others causing them to perceive you that way, and act accordingly.
Not to be said I love it here fall was amazing and well winter is gonna be cold... I wonder how well my 3 long sleeve shirts will hold up. Okay so i'm working on that :)
Who am I? That's still the big question, and although I am so far from figuring it out i'm excited the girl that God is making me. I do not. I repeat, do not have all the answers and I still don't know how to respond in certain situations but i'm trying, and learning, and trying and for once that's good enough for me. :)

Standing in the rain

Even though the last few days have been jam packed with death, greaving and bad news. Doesnt mean we have to drown ourselves in a puddle of misery. We should dance in the rain, take time for the tears, then move on. You never know who needs your help in the next moment. Who needs your smile to make it through the next day. Or who really looks up to you and thinks your a strong and confident person. so smile it helps in the long run, you never know helping someone might not only save their life, but in the end save your own.

Freakouts Start Now....

Why am i freaking out?! I really have no idea i still have over 150 days till i even graduate and more than that till i leave. This place no longer feels like home but what if Spring Arbor doesn't either. Do i just not belong anywhere?! Feeling really unwanted lately and really don't want to go on that band trip. its just gonna be drama which i don't need any more of......... God just save me now.......... PLEASE?! Im Crushing again yeah yeah i know so long of a break but what do you expect im Michaela aren't I :) haha ok im tired and just not in a good mood and my knee is swollen...... whats up with that?! Goodnight!!!