Crushing.....

Crushing is not a fun experience for me....Always getting my hopes up, only to get hurt because well i'm me. Maybe this time is different I don't know, maybe he actually likes me too.. Ahhhh i'm turning into such a girl...Always thinking about him, when I see him I get sooo shy and timid. I mean I normally shy but this is getting stupid. I don't know. After not letting myself get close to people for 2 years I don't know how to do this anymore. Lets just say, I completely fail at being a girl, and flirting, and knowing what I want. Well I know what I want this time, I just don't know how to make it happen. Maybe I will sit back and see how this one plays out instead of making all the first moves. Yep that sounds like a good plan, i'll go with that one. The end....