ever feel totaly lost in your own town

i cant wait to leave still have a few more thousand months though. i have an amazing "boyfriend" i guess kinda not really. im so out of life here im done with it i cant even pretend i like it anymore........... i just wanna start over in a new town with new people, form new relationships and ditch this michaela to form the real one. im so scared to even move here i wanna die here its too constrcting i hate it, sure michigan will probably be the same but i wont have my rep. i just wanna move now. :( count down 243 days till im out of this place its not soon enough.... :(