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So you remember the amazing "Boyfriend" yeah he is a fake ok so hes real but no my boyfriend and truly not amazing....Why do i always pick jerks i dont understand :( all i want is a lasting true relationship that doesnt end cause i wouldnt do something. Im tired of all these sick games trying to make me do things that ireally dont wanna do. I think they should stop now. Ok? Thank you. 8 months till i leave 6 more till high school is over forever and a few more months till softball.Im so done with being the fat girl if not out loud in my head. i hate it I feel huge all the time even though I know I'm not..... It sucks I just want it to go away......but it cant..... i will not be the fat girl in college i refuse to be....... this summer im loosing all the weight i can and thats final....... humpth guys are butt heads plan and simple too bad i love them....