stanger in the homeland

Ever feel like you don't belong in your own town, the place you grew up? It so doesn't make since but somethings missing and its not here. Its all the way on the otherside of the us or farther. This doesnt make since why did i grow up here? If at the moment i turn 18 I move across the us? Its so confusing. Are people here shapping me into the girl my love wants over there. Am i supposed to feel different? An outcast? Will that play into my life at Spring Arbor? Will i miss my life here, my friends? Or will i love it there? Will i be an out cast there as well? Or finally find the place where i belong? all these are racing around my head like crazy. In all this finishing high school is a must. summer is again undecided. and love is ever move confusing.....where will my life go i have no idea...... only God does......trust..is a must....biggest fear confirmed.... : /